Doubt

am quite certain about my religious belief and I am quite certain about the relationship between God and I.. Lately I'd not been to the church for sunday services for a few months, and that's due to a few reasons.

Somehow I am having doubt towards lots of things recently, why in between God and I , there are so many obstacles, like internal conflicts of churches, or different political views of christians.
Why .. there are so many HUMAN THOUGHTS in between? Isn't my faith should just be purely between God and I?

God loves us, the the 'us' includes everybody. The Bible did explicitly stated that He dislike homosexual activities, but the ground is, even though he dislike this behaviour, He still loves every human being. We shouldn't condemn anyone, yet we should show them our love.
Once a human mind overrules the God's world, it's starting to be dangerous. It's hard to distinguish being 'devoted' or being a Pharisee. And was the way that churches intepret the Bible really the true message that's been sent from God?

I'm confused!! But then again ... my faith in Him does remain the same. I have no doubt in God, but i do have doubt on human!!!

Dear God, pls enlighten us!!

Today at work …

Well.. firstly as my Boss asked me to do some analysis for him last week, I spent the whole morning maneuvering my spreadsheets and stuffs, and bascially got my work done right before lunch.

Then my boss was still busy as usual so I couldn't get hold of him to present my work, so I started with some readings. As yesterday I went to watch a stage play about Galileo, and also because last Friday was Darwin's 200th birthday, my Monday became VERY SCIENTIFIC (or philosophical!!??)

In fact after watching yesterday's play, my heart was gathered with lots of different thoughts, I'm not sure how I can express myself, cos diff thoughts just flying above my head. Anyway… so .. yes after lunch, I started serving the wiki and had read through (sort of) the bio of Galileo, then onto Aristotle. It wasn't easy to read these people's bio, cos would encountered lots of OLD WORDS or latins.. or whatever … I guessed I had read through 90% of the stuffs on wiki of the Galileo page, but I was only up to like 50% of Aristotle, I guess it's just not easy to 'get to know' a person who was born 2300 years ago.. -_-

Then I was chatting with a colleague and discussing my findings, and he gave me a very interesting (sacarstic) comment -- He was surprised that I had actually through the whole thing, and he said 'people became more civilised as they get richer', I said 'nah.. people get more unciviised when they get richer. Money is the root of all evil, it's corruptive'.

Then he said 'Nope… i'm at the stage of satisfying basic needs - surviving haha .. sex and hunger'
ah .. man .. Maslow Hierarchy of needs, you want me to have that as my next reading for the next 2 hrs? -_-

伽利略傳 - 春天實驗劇團

伽利略傳是我再香港看得第五套話劇，自問不是藝術細胞濃厚的人，所以一般來說我都不會看太難消化的話劇。 這次伽利略傳屬於春天實驗劇團劇目，劇團名叫實驗劇團，所以這套劇有點試驗性質, 卻沒有我想像中的悶 hahaa 至少在沒有足夠精神下我都沒有睡著!!! 不過，確實沒有之前幾套容易入口。之前幾個劇目是 "新傾城之戀"，“黎花夢”，“德齡與慈禧" ，全都有大明星（包括話劇界的大明星)，大製作， 有好聽的旋律 （o ..except the one which was 最最最難入口的是幾年前一套叫 "我自在江湖" 看完了都不知究竟想表達甚麼)。

至於伽利略傳，吸引我來看的當然不是因為伽利略 (別以為這伽利略是破案的那個神探伽利略），是因為廖啟智先生。 全套戲由智叔由頭帶到尾，其他的演員當然都被他蓋過了。 劇本是一個英文翻譯劇，是講伽利略的傳記，主要講到科學與當年羅馬教廷的抗爭，腐敗教廷對科學發現影嚮權利而恐懼，繼而威逼利誘科學家放棄對真理的追求。

當然另一方面就是說到人性是脆弱，明知道自己看到真理，但當生命受到威脅時，人類很容易都會選擇活下去而不去當英雄!! 再這，劇末的時候都說到如果當時他堅持他真理，他會被火刑然後就不能再做研究，他就沒時間去證實他的理論 ... 有一句對白我很喜歡，當伽利略傳放棄他的理論，向教廷懺悔後，他的學生十分失望說 "一個文明國家沒有英雄是一個悲哀", 但伽利略卻說 "一個文明新時代根本就不需要有英雄"。

無論如何伽利略是一個偉大的科學家， 真理終於在1979年的到平反!!